So I've been thinking lately (along with getting several different opinions from different friends) and I can't come to a decision about "the move." A good friend of mine brought up a very good point... that the life I'm living now is the life that I once wanted. It's 100% true... Once upon a time, I wanted to work in the Nightclub Industry - wanted to capitalize on the fact that I live in Vegas and can work at night making a decent income and return to school full time. I wanted to intern at a entertainment/fashion mag. I wanted to get my own place. I wanted to write. And I'm doing all of it. Crazy thing about it is that within a year's time, I was able to accomplish everything that I set my mind to. I guess that's just my tenacity at work.
A year ago I was living with my roommate and her boyfriend, confused about life and where I wanted to go. I had just starting working in the Industry and didn't know where it would take me. I began looking at different colleges and started to peruse my choices. I knew I wanted to write for something Industry related, perhaps entertainment... I just knew I wanted to write. I always said that working for a magazine would be a job that I would find interesting. I said I wouldn't live with a couple ever again (it ain't easy). And here I am, 12 months later, in my own place, interning at a magazine, blogging for the company I work for (it was my idea and now my blog will be linked in the company's website) and surpassing anyone's expectations of how far I would have gone or how long I would have lasted in the Industry. Again, I guess I have to say that it's my tenacity at work.
This leads me to ask myself, what is it that I think that I'm missing? What is it that I think that moving to Los Angeles will fulfill in my life? Am I just bored? Does this fall within the limits of, "I'm never satisfied?"
Sadly, I don't know the answer to any of those questions. I don't even know why I feel I need to go to LA, but for some odd reason, part of me does. It's not like there's anything out there for me - except for new opportunities. *shrugs* I guess the next best thing for me to do is to make a list of positives and negatives.
Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm unhappy with my life. I just feel like something is missing... and I can't quite put my finger on it. Either something's missing or I feel like something in my life can't be fulfilled by staying here. I just don't know.
Words of wisdom gladly welcomed.
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The reason the grass seems greener on the other side of the fence is that there's probably more bullshit there to fertilize it. I have no argument about your work ethic; i question if you're not setting your goals high enough.
ReplyDeleteAs for the changing your shoes every time you step in a pile of shit...maybe you should be watching where you're walking, so that you avoid stepping in the piles of shit! lol
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You know I'm biased about L.A., so I'll withhold all comments influenced by my own jealous desire to move there. :)
ReplyDeleteBut, if you're planning on staying in the field(s) that you're in right now, moving may not be so necessary. Maybe give it another year, build up your experience and connections some more, and then if you still feel the need to relocate, do it then. Just a thought.
Alright all, for right now I have to agree with the both of y'all. I definitely am not setting my goals high enough and DEFI - you're absolutely right - I should build up more experience and connections since I'm definitely lined up to do just that.
ReplyDeleteI had a really good talk with work yesterday. More to come in a future blog.
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